Love Is Enough

becoming a student of love

"It is never too late to be what you might have been."
George Eliot

One of my strengths in this life is that I am a good student. I observe well, listen well, and take phenomenal notes. I love reading so I am an excellent researcher and can immerse myself in many topics of interest.  And more than that, I do well when tested, because I generally can slog through the mass of materials presented and hone in on the salient points of interest.

And yet, I feel I would fail a test on love.  It is a subject I should be well-versed in, and yet, I'm not sure I've ever really grasped the subject completely.

Is it too late for me to become a STUDENT of LOVE?

therapeutic love

“He who is afraid of asking is ashamed of learning.” Danish Proverb

I went back into therapy yesterday after an eleven year break for some THERAPEUTIC LOVE.

I realized it was time to stop trying to manage my separation and midlife crisis on my own. It's not always fair or practical to lean on friends or family, plus I felt I needed to ask for professional wisdom and guidance from an objective third-party. I needed a safe place to spill my guts...and hopefully find some answers.

hurdles to happiness

HAPPINESS. We all want it and yet at times it can seem so damn elusive.

It's here one minute and then vanishes the next. We can steal snippets of happiness, but often are left with an overall feeling of discontent or unhappiness. The older we get, the more disillusioned we can become, asking ourselves: Where's my slice of happiness?...Haven't I paid my dues? ...Is this all there is?

Despite my recent personal problems, I would rate myself as overall fairly happy, meaning I feel I am living the life I was meant to live and am aware that I have been lucky/blessed in many ways. I believe that every challenge and/or opportunity in my life has presented itself for a reason, and has made me the person I am.

But while I dont have an overwhelming feeling of disillusionment or disconnect at this phase of my life, I am coming to terms with the fact that I can have more than I currently have. I can have the life I imagine. I can have MORE happiness -- and beyond that a sense of well-being, fulfillment, and love.

The only thing keeping me from having that life? MYSELF.