I have a sinus infection and earache and was feeling so horrible last week that I was going to write a long, depressing post on Friday about how much my life sucks. But then, I reminded myself that when I wallow in self-pity, it's ugly and it doesn't help my mental or physical states at all. Instead, I'm learning to acknowledge the bad, and yet, always acknowledge the good as well. So here's what's been going on with me.
THE BAD: I have a horrible sinus infection/earache.
It has knocked me off my feet, I can't exercise, and I feel utterly
miserable. I'm also treating myself holistically, unwilling to go to
the doctor for an antibiotic so it's a very, slow torturous recovery.
At times I have felt utterly defeated. After all I've done this past
year to get healthy, I can't believe I get this. Whatelse more does my
body want from me? I've given up junk food, diet soda, and carbs. I've
begun exercising, getting regular chiropractic adjustments, and had all
my mercury fillings removed. And yet, I feel like crud.
THE GOOD: Yes, this is a setback for me, but it's also a way my body is communicating with me. Something's off, and I need to correct it. Besides, having my fillings removed was rather traumatic, and this sinus infection is most likely a result of having all of that done to me. But I'm on the road to recovery, overall. And I'm much better than I was a year ago. My migraines are infrequent now. I'm off of prescription medication. I don't run to the doctor for antibiotics at the drop of a hat. And I'm becoming better at treating myself, naturally, without medication.
THE BAD: Found out that our series, Breeding Ground,
was turned down by Oxygen because it would be too "costly" for them to
produce. Not the news I want to hear when I'm sick and already
THE GOOD: We had our series looked at by the people at Oxygen, which means someone over there may now be aware that we are alive. Maybe that person is just a reader today, but they could be an Executive Producer tomorrow. We are making connections, which may not help us NOW, but may help us LATER ON.
THE BETTER: My spec script for Desperate Housewives, was just named a finalist in the WriteSafe Present-Athon competition AND a producer at Oprah asked to see some raw footage from the Bluebelles documentary I'm making with my filmmaking partners.
THE BAD: We're having an inground pool put in and it
is a long and torturous process. My backyard is a mountain of mud.
It's hard for the poor dog to go out do his business. Nobody tells me
what's going on. My grass is dying because we had the sprinklers
turned off until the pool is done. It's going to be a long summer,
because even once the pool is done, I still need to hire landscapers
and have a patio put in, repair the sprinklers we ripped up in the
process, replace the now dead lawn, and repair the fence that they
took down in order to dig the giant hole in my backyard.
THE GOOD: When all is said and done, in the end, we will have a kickass inground pool. Hard to complain with that at the end of the tunnel. Just impatient to have it all done, and to be finished with home improvement related construction FOREVER.
THE BETTER: The pool is heated unlike our last pool so should give us more hours of enjoyment.